Silence...not always golden

I am a person who loves peace and quiet, but not hearing at all from my brother since the big reveal has been awful and disappointing.  In the end it has lead me to cancel our vacation we were going to take in August to meet him to golf in Alberta.  I made up an excuse, but the reality was that I didn't want to drive 6 or 7 hours to see him, finally have a conversation about what I told him and then end up immediately wanting to leave.  It upset me more than I thought it would when I told him we couldn't go.  I think because I am disappointed in him, I expected more from him.  Any maybe I should cut him some slack, I get that this is far from easy to talk about, but still. 

Anyway, that's done and it did relieve some stress for me.  He says he will be visiting in September so I guess we'll see if we talk about it then.  For now I will just try not to think about it.

Finally we are getting some hot weather, yay!  I am so tired of rain, it's so depressing.  And this week is especially hot so that's awesome.  Other than me having a headache for the past 4 days, that's not so awesome.  Feeling a bit better today so I hope I'm done with that again.  Despite not feeling great my husband and I did go golfing on Sunday, it was so beautiful outside.  We walked 18 holes and the course was actually quite quiet, it really was great.

Less than 3 weeks until my appointment now... very excited and nervous!

By the way, my husband just said to me "hey, I'm finally back over 130 lbs, yay!"....hate that guy sometimes...